Aligning My Purpose - How I Got Here

Finding my online home through Duaa

I was writing my 40th insight today - in a facebook messenger chat - to myself. Again. Like I do literally every day. My mind BURSTING at the seams with insight. Simple powerful raw moments of reflection, that contained absolute gems. Words I only had for myself and felt too contained on IG or facebook to make a pretty square post and share. My precious insights running in circles in my head and in my notes to myself… every damn day. so inspired but so stuck. every single day.

And then I got so fed up I threw my phone down and I called out to Allah - ya ALLAH Why did you give me all of this knowledge and somehow no way of sharing it?! Like I’m grateful but there HAS to be a way! And So I cried, and in my desperation, I made sincere duaa. I told him - ngl I yelled - casually!! for the first time in my life - ya Allah I’m desperate to help the world! BUT I DON’T KNOW HOW. I’m desperate for you to use me and all the wisdom you send into my brain in these adhd type bursts of energy but I LITERALLY CANNOT DO ANYTHING WITHOUT YOU. Ya Allah Please Help me ya Allah I tried everything I’m so drained. I want to share! I want to serve! I want to help! I’m ready SHOW ME HOW!

And then long story short. Allah lead me here. In a community of heart soul wanderers like me - a community away from the noise - craving just raw human connection.

Back to simplicity

- just words

from the heart

on a white page.

Alhamdulilah. I came here to substack writing my first note/post lol (still getting used to things) because Allah is truly so Merciful. He Hears us guys. He’s So Caring. So Loving. He sees every ounce of our heart, every second of effort, every sting of sincerity. He sees us. He is Al Shakoor. He appreciates every last bit of it. He sees every ounce of our effort. ALLAH IS OUR HEALER GUYS!!!!! And He answers our dua. Every single one. Every last one. He even answers the ones you DONT MAKE. In ways you didnt EVEN KNOW you needed. I promise. but forget me - Allah’s Promises are never broken! NEVER. ever ever ever. He answers EVERY SINGLE ONE. If only you KNEW How much He believes in YOU! If only you KNEW How much He’s PREPARING YOU. LIVING through ALLAH will TRANSFORM YOU. You will be healed. Just let yourself go to Him. I was terrified. And the second I broke down my ego and admitted. Ya Allah I REQUIRE you - He Came.

So I’m here. Alhamdulilah. Allah knew exactly what I needed to feel free with my content again. He knows exactly what my soul needed. I’m writing this with literal tears in my eyes, after being so drained from IG I swear. After being so fed up with every marketing course under the sun. I feel free. I was born to write, to share. To be in community. To show people how in love I am, and how surrounded by love we can be. How easy life can be if we just align.

Back to fitra, back to simplicity. Back to flow, back to connection.

And then the most magical part - Allah ALLOWED me to capatalize on the strengths I already had - being exactly who I am - but more aware. Allah led me to realize I had this gift all along Alhamdulilah. Writing exactly how I do, I just wasn’t aligned with the right place. All i needed was to slow down and be grateful for what I already had. To literally open my eyes, and realize my place. I didn’t know how to use these gifts, but when I called to Him- He showed me the way. When you call to Him, He WILL show you the way. And all it took… was a simple nudge - a passing voice “hey have you heard of substack?” to find my new online home.

Alhamdulilah, it feels right, here.

I can breathe. I can write so easily, so freely. Alhamdulilah.

Allah answers duas guys. Every single one. He is our HEALER. I could never say it before. But I truly, deeply, emmensly, love Allah. Alhamdulilah.

And you can too.

“And if you count Allah’s blessings, you will never be able to” [16:18]